More than 2 years

For more than 2 years now I have awoke to a feeling of pure panic. There is no rhyme or reason to why this is the way it is. It is a product of the trauma I have been through. I am exhausted. I have tried so many ways to alleviate the stress and anxiety but so far nothing has worked. I am praying for a moment of peace. It seems I pray all day long. So my only wish for Christmas this year is calm in my soul once again.