Breathing is Optional

I am sure there are so many around me that believe if I only tried I could be handling this stronger, better. But I have tried so hard and I haven't much strength left. In fact making it to the car to take my kids where they need to go is all I can get done. I am spent. My heart is aching so much. I can't get the sadness out. I am watching my loved ones struggle everyday because of the accident. I can't do it anymore. It is tearing me apart. I love them so much. How could this be happening to our family? Isn't it enough? I can't make it better. It needs to be better. He will soon be 18, but not really because he is no longer here. Oh I miss you Lough.