Friday, May 21, 2010

The Suburban

I came across this picture by chance just yesterday. I was searching for another accident that had happened in our area and our suburban was the result. I have looked for this image many times without success. I never understood when I heard the phrase, you were lucky that only one was lost. I understand now how someone could say that. It has brought back the memories, the nightmares.

5 comments:

Sharon said...

Wow. All I can say is wow.

I will never comprehend what you have gone through. But I read your blog often and cry with you. Seeing this hit me hard and I cried again. Its a tiny glimpse into the hell that I imagine began with this photo.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. One day it will all make sense.

Sharon Anderson
Lehi, UT

Bridget said...

Wow. I had no idea the crash was so severe...I mean seriously your vehicle is mangled something fierce. Of course your nightmares continue. This is/was traumatic. Did they use the Jaws of Life cut you all out?

Colleen said...

Wow, this leaves me speechless.

I remember the visions I had in my head of my son's fatal go-kart accident and finally a year later went to the police station to request the pictures & report because I had to know. My pictures laid to rest an over active imagination, and the actual pictures were much less grousome than the pictures in my head. For me the pictures provided some healing.

As awful as your pictures are, I hope they too help you make steps toward healing.

I am so sorry for you.

~plaid said...

I didn't even know they take pictures at the scene, or that if they did they wouldn't have given them to you. In some ways, I look at that picture and there is an understanding about what happened and how a child could be taken as a result. It must be envy or something else I'm fighting, because it seems to me that having a more clear image of what happened could make it more real. It makes no sense to me that children can die and there not be a cause. A car accident like that seems more clear to result in death. I'm rambling. I don't know how you can be lucky to "only" lose one child. And you've lost two. Just not in the same way, but it still compounds things. But yes, I am glad it was "only" one that the accident claimed. I wish I knew what to say except to ramble through this. I am challenged with my own experiences, and it is just seems so frustrating to me that our brains can be so injured but there isn't a picture of the wreckage to show to people to help them see that the injuries there are real. How the heartbreak is just as real as any wounds on the outside. I hope you understand my words in the fog...

{ Bethany } said...

My first thought was "oh my God". I can't believe anyone survived that.

I am so sorry you had to relive it through the picture. But maybe like you said, it will help close a chapter of "what if.."s or "why.."s. I hope you can now close that wondering and file it away.

~Bethany